and, I would be lost and REALLY depressed if not for them. It's true, I lost my three best friends in 2 years, and, some days are harder to get thru than others. We were friends for over 50 years and they were the kind you could call at 3 in the morning if you needed help and KNOW they would be there, no questions asked. But, they are gone, and I miss them. However, I have other friends, some I've known for a very long time. Two of them are cousins to the ones I've lost, and, that's a nice connection. Other friends are newer but still, its great to know them. I don't know if I'd try the 3 in the morning thing or not. Maybe.
Then, there's the blogging friends. Sometimes, when I get a little sad, I'll surf my blogging buddies and realize there are such good people out there on the net. I sometimes wish we all lived closer so an in-your-face visit could happen. But, maybe not. Familiarity breeds contempt? Whatever.
I dread losing my Dad, just because it will make me really alone. Some tough decisions will have to be made. I got burned out on 'decision-making' when I worked. I just want to float thru the rest of my life, some days. Oh, I can still make decisions, hard ones, like putting a pet down or where to build the garage or do I even want to dump more money in this place, etc., etc.,. I am kinda glad that Dad is such a procrastinator when it comes to making decisions. Forced me to stand on my own two feet, early. He has NEVER told me what to do with this place or anything else for that matter. Sometimes he'd make a suggestion, but, Mom was the one with the advice, and we lost her early, at 58, to Alzheimer's. Although, physically, she was with us for another 22 years, Dad being the caregiver. I'll always admire him for that.
So, when I look at the way this country is headed, the world for that matter. I'm glad I was born when I was, had the friends I had, and, have the friends I do. Just some reflections on this beautiful, sunny, Sunday. Gotta go, get a shower, friends are coming for a visit.