and, I would be lost and REALLY depressed if not for them. It's true, I lost my three best friends in 2 years, and, some days are harder to get thru than others. We were friends for over 50 years and they were the kind you could call at 3 in the morning if you needed help and KNOW they would be there, no questions asked. But, they are gone, and I miss them. However, I have other friends, some I've known for a very long time. Two of them are cousins to the ones I've lost, and, that's a nice connection. Other friends are newer but still, its great to know them. I don't know if I'd try the 3 in the morning thing or not. Maybe.
Then, there's the blogging friends. Sometimes, when I get a little sad, I'll surf my blogging buddies and realize there are such good people out there on the net. I sometimes wish we all lived closer so an in-your-face visit could happen. But, maybe not. Familiarity breeds contempt? Whatever.
I dread losing my Dad, just because it will make me really alone. Some tough decisions will have to be made. I got burned out on 'decision-making' when I worked. I just want to float thru the rest of my life, some days. Oh, I can still make decisions, hard ones, like putting a pet down or where to build the garage or do I even want to dump more money in this place, etc., etc.,. I am kinda glad that Dad is such a procrastinator when it comes to making decisions. Forced me to stand on my own two feet, early. He has NEVER told me what to do with this place or anything else for that matter. Sometimes he'd make a suggestion, but, Mom was the one with the advice, and we lost her early, at 58, to Alzheimer's. Although, physically, she was with us for another 22 years, Dad being the caregiver. I'll always admire him for that.
So, when I look at the way this country is headed, the world for that matter. I'm glad I was born when I was, had the friends I had, and, have the friends I do. Just some reflections on this beautiful, sunny, Sunday. Gotta go, get a shower, friends are coming for a visit.
Later....................
4 comments:
Hang in there, Beautiful. I shall always be your friend.
That's good to know. Thanks.
The older I get the more I lose friends, they are and were like family to me, I had such a dysfunctional family as it were, they live within 25 minutes & I will never see them..My hubs and daughter are my rock, nearly 40 years of marriage and good friends indeed..from childhood which was fine until my Mom passed when I was little, then the hell began, most are only children who took to me like I was their sister and helped me and my brother to survive until I was 18 and moved to be with my grandmother..Yes life to me is all about friends because sometimes family is not what it is suppose to be. I can call my friends but I don't we see them at the beach, retired now and happy, some have lost their mates as I call their hubby and wives or never married, it never mattered to me, they are the same people in my heart and mind..I love your blog and lost it because my hubs cleaned the computer up and I could not remember your blog name I found it I tried so hard to remember it and voila this morning it came around!!!!!!!!! Continued health and happiness, your Dad sounds like a peach of a person! ciao!
Dear Anon, thanks for making the effort to find me again. I love to read your comments. We seem to agree on a lot of the same things. Thanks for stopping by.
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